FULL MOON! "WORM MOON"
Current state of Mishi:
Working on strengthening relationships with people
Working on working
Attempting to set aside time for creative endeavours
Trying to remember to stay practical
Next week I will have a little surprise featuring one of my favorite Houston artists!
Fare thee well!
Keep on glowing, glow worms!
Week 11 of 52
I'll put you before me.
I'll say yes to you.
I've got to stop putting everyone before me because nothing I want to do gets done.
I've got to work on my follow though.
I can be so dependable when I'm selfish cause I'm living in the moment.
Don't live for anyone else.
It's not worth losing yourself.
And I don't mean to say don't think about others-
I just mean that you are allowed to be your own priority.
If people leave you behind because you're being true to yourself, all you can do is wait to see if your paths cross again. Celebrate growth in others, and celebrated growth within you.
We're all just trying to live, man.
Slowly but surely getting back into making things. <3
This is Kitty. She's so sweet when she's sleeping. <3
If you wanna make sushi, or if you just like sushi, here are some photos and a video of our VDAY SOOSH SESSION <3
This is all I care about this week.
I'm working on making delicious, nutritious meals and making coffee or tea at home instead of buying it.
Experimental Octopus, Scallops with Sliced Habanero inside, and Baked Salmon with the skin + Sliced ginger and lemon slices in the little slits :-D
Marinade: Freshly Squeezed Lemon Juice, Rosemary, some gluten free soy sauce, salt, pepper, freshly chopped garlic, minced ginger root, a shake of cayenne, a sprinkle of basil
Not pictured: Roasted Potatoes, Brussel Sprouts, Onions, Mushrooms on the side :)
This meal would have cost around $90-$150 at some restaurant
I spent about $30
In my dreams, I'm always watching you. You perform. I put you on a pedestal, as if you are the potential that I was wanted to live up to but never could and never will. We always have a face-to-face encounter. And sometimes it's a feel-good encounter, and sometimes it's one where I relive the core-penetrating pain and adrenaline rush of that moment when I stopped trusting you.
New Series Coming SOOOOOON......
Here's my tarot reading from last week.
Left to Right:
Past, Present, Future
Can someone tell me what they mean?
Noone said I would have a lot to say.
I don't have much at all to say.
This is Lou and Aubrey. Here's photo from an upcoming series! Stay tuned! I should be done editing the photos by next week. :) <3
I work on this rubik's cube periodically, lose my place, and then start all over again.
yellow gas station
I drove home at 6:40 in the morning after spending the night vomiting purple chunks into A's toilet.
I ended up staying awake, running home to grab my camera, took these photos, and then surprised my girlfriend at her apartment.
I just like this wall.
I bought this Casio several years ago at a flea market for $10. I finally feel like I'm worthy of using it.
These songs are nothing final, nothing finished, but I thought I would track my progress.
I'm teaching myself to play keys with vocals. :-*
Lastly, my lover is the sweetest little biscuit.
She makes me mad. She makes me laugh.
She brings me flowers.
The first shoot of the year!
My mission this year is to help fellow queers and creators.
(I guess it has always been my mission.)
BUT this year, I would like to focus on photographing works by fellow queer creators.
SO if you would like to collaborate or have photos taken of yourself, your brands, your creative endeavors, by all means, reach out to me! I am here for you! And I want to help capture your work!
See the full gallery "LOU + YATTA" HERE <3
And if you need more examples of my work, look through the "Gallery" tab for a lonnnnnnggggg list of series. <3
New sweet baby dishes in exchange for helping at an estate sale. <3
Lou's dinosaur collection
*This is what it looks like at night, when I take out the garbage at work. CREEPY AF*
There are days when I wake up, and nothing can satisfy me.
It always passes.
But I used to try to find the things that would satisfy me.
It would always end up with me reaching for people who were no good for me, staying up late, and snorting coke or eating 10 Xanax. Anything for a cheap thrill to help me forget that nothing was good enough.
I don't do that kind of shit anymore.
I just let the boredom pass through me, and maybe take a walk or clean my apartment, or read or go to bed early til it's over.
I'm not about to go backwards.
I'm not trying to die early.
I'm just looking for ways to be clean and positive.
On that note, I haven't smoked a cigarette in 11 days, and I've only had a couple drinks since Dec. 31.
And I haven't really eaten cheese, which is really really hard.
This is my second time doing the Whole30, and I really really just want some fucking cheese.
I don't even eat that much cheese to begin with, but someone please feed me pizza on February 1.
This morning I safely drove through an intersection.
Ten minutes later, I drove through the same intersection,
and an SUV had been slammed into on the driver's side door and pushed out of its lane and under a bridge.
The other car, a white truck, was spun around facing the opposite direction, several yards away with its tires burst.
Sometimes I wonder how many times I've avoided death
In days, hours, minutes, seconds- and just by chance.
Just mere weebly wobbly shaky breaky chance.
Hello New Year!