Being with someone controlling is like this:
You feel happy enough to dance,
but as soon as you start dancing, they grab your arms and try to move you to their beat.
So you stop dancing because you feel like a marionette.
And when they ask you why you stopped dancing, you say you just didn't want to anymore.
So then they tell you to dance,
but you know how it goes.
It's just a cycle.
They'll restrain you.
You'll explain how you just wanted to dance.
They'll tell you you can dance.
You'll tell them you don't need permission.
You'll become mute.
They'll ask why you don't want to talk to them.
You'll want to say "Cause you're sucking my soul."
But you'll just want to move on,
and you'll hope that things will change.
But they don't change.
It's just a cycle.
Until you decide to dance alone or with people who dance with you, without grabbing your arms or trying to pull your strings.
Each person dances how they want, and sometimes you'll twirl each other around.
That's called respect.
That's the only good cycle out there.
Don't let anyone restrain you.
She would remain elusive
and I would tell her that
she reminds me of me.
I have let so many loves fade away.
I'll be in Austin this weekend to visit Women and Their Work.
If you are interested in submitting for to them, go to their site. I believe they're accepting proposals until March 30!
Because of this, I'll be missing two openings that I'm very very excited about!
SO I WANT TO SHARE THEM WITH YOU!
Photographer Jessica Alvarenga shares her collection, Southern Queers at Siphon Coffee.
Check it out Saturday, 7-9pm as part of FotoFest.
See more of her work here: http://jessofelia.com/jessofelia.com/
RSVP on Facebook here: https://www.facebook.com/events/117578369021041/
I'm also excited to feature some of my own works (jewelry) in Jessica's photographs.
She is an inspiring advocate and artist who is doing incredible work, not just for her but also for the people she works with.
SIDE NOTE: It's important to keep pushing for acceptance, and by helping to highlight our queer friends, we create visibility. It isn't to push our "gay agenda" on anyone. It is to gain acceptance for our LGBTQIA family, and to reach out to younger and older persons who may not share the same values as us. Without making work like this, we cannot help educate the public. The most important reason to share this sort of work is help save lives. And that may seem like a stretch, and many people are absolutely more accepting of us since in 2018, but there are still so many parts of the world, including the US, where suicide rates among LGBTQIA people are extremely high, where people are ostracized, beaten, and killed for their sexuality. I am in a place in my life where I crave openness and learning, and I believe that it is important for us and future generations to talk about taboos, so that we create more openness and acceptance.
Also, just go see the photos because they're really great!
FULL MOON! "WORM MOON"
Current state of Mishi:
Working on strengthening relationships with people
Working on working
Attempting to set aside time for creative endeavours
Trying to remember to stay practical
Next week I will have a little surprise featuring one of my favorite Houston artists!
Fare thee well!
Keep on glowing, glow worms!
Week 11 of 52
I'll put you before me.
I'll say yes to you.
I've got to stop putting everyone before me because nothing I want to do gets done.
I've got to work on my follow though.
I can be so dependable when I'm selfish cause I'm living in the moment.
Don't live for anyone else.
It's not worth losing yourself.
And I don't mean to say don't think about others-
I just mean that you are allowed to be your own priority.
If people leave you behind because you're being true to yourself, all you can do is wait to see if your paths cross again. Celebrate growth in others, and celebrated growth within you.
We're all just trying to live, man.
Slowly but surely getting back into making things. <3
This is Kitty. She's so sweet when she's sleeping. <3
If you wanna make sushi, or if you just like sushi, here are some photos and a video of our VDAY SOOSH SESSION <3
This is all I care about this week.
I'm working on making delicious, nutritious meals and making coffee or tea at home instead of buying it.
Experimental Octopus, Scallops with Sliced Habanero inside, and Baked Salmon with the skin + Sliced ginger and lemon slices in the little slits :-D
Marinade: Freshly Squeezed Lemon Juice, Rosemary, some gluten free soy sauce, salt, pepper, freshly chopped garlic, minced ginger root, a shake of cayenne, a sprinkle of basil
Not pictured: Roasted Potatoes, Brussel Sprouts, Onions, Mushrooms on the side :)
This meal would have cost around $90-$150 at some restaurant
I spent about $30
In my dreams, I'm always watching you. You perform. I put you on a pedestal, as if you are the potential that I was wanted to live up to but never could and never will. We always have a face-to-face encounter. And sometimes it's a feel-good encounter, and sometimes it's one where I relive the core-penetrating pain and adrenaline rush of that moment when I stopped trusting you.
New Series Coming SOOOOOON......
Here's my tarot reading from last week.
Left to Right:
Past, Present, Future
Can someone tell me what they mean?
Noone said I would have a lot to say.
I don't have much at all to say.
This is Lou and Aubrey. Here's photo from an upcoming series! Stay tuned! I should be done editing the photos by next week. :) <3
I work on this rubik's cube periodically, lose my place, and then start all over again.
yellow gas station
I drove home at 6:40 in the morning after spending the night vomiting purple chunks into A's toilet.
I ended up staying awake, running home to grab my camera, took these photos, and then surprised my girlfriend at her apartment.
I just like this wall.
I bought this Casio several years ago at a flea market for $10. I finally feel like I'm worthy of using it.
These songs are nothing final, nothing finished, but I thought I would track my progress.
I'm teaching myself to play keys with vocals. :-*
Lastly, my lover is the sweetest little biscuit.
She makes me mad. She makes me laugh.
She brings me flowers.