I feel like a stranger.
In my own body, and in my place in life. I have never really felt like I belonged anywhere, and for that I have felt disconnection and suffering. Paradoxically, it is because of this feeling that I have caused continuous isolation.
I found out I am Autistic, and with that, felt comfort.
A lot of things made sense.
It’s not so much that I didn’t belong. I was just trying to belong with people who didn’t deserve me.
I have grown to learn that I must build my own place in this world. Learn about myself- now that I don’t feel as though I must change who I am.
I no longer feel like my natural existence is an inconvenience.